What a week!

June 27th, 2010 - Wow Lord, what a week! Where do I start? I haven't written anything since this whole thing started so I guess I need to go back a whole week!

I knew a couple of days before this whole thing started that something big was about to happen; but honestly, I did not expect this and definitely not this fast! This whole thing has definitely blown me away! Even in my last entry I wrote here, I knew something was going on. The reoccurring theme was just too much just to be coincidental. Thank You Lord that You are with me through all of this. I'm sorry Lord that even though I knew that this was from You, that I struggled with it the first couple of days - I really struggled, Lord. I cried and You heard me - and encouraged me - and quieted me down about this - I do love You, Lord and I do want to do what You want - but sometimes it is just so hard!

On Wednesday, when John came home and told me where our support account was at, I knew we were moving. I knew it in my head, but I didn't want to believe it in my heart. I still don't understand why You are taking us out of our present ministry - well, maybe I do, a bit - I think we were put in Saskatoon to pioneer this type of ministry there, which was very badly needed. Now, You are placing us in another pace to pioneer another type of ministry, which is very badly needed there. But, why us pioneering? This type of ministry is very hard and oftentimes very discouraging. I thank You that I have You, because if I didn't, I don't think I would be able to do these things. You are my comfort, my strength, m fortress, You make me soar on eages' wings.

So, I am doing something thought I would never do - moving back home - back to Campobello Island - back to North Road Baptist Church. Lord, will it be easy? No. Am I happy about it? Not really. Can I do it? Not on my own; but with You there with me, Yes. I know You have a lot of things to teach me. Help me not to forget You when I have tough situations there. Make me a better person because of this move, Lord. Please, don't let me lose who I am there. I have changed since leaving there - a lot - help the people there to accept that fact - but even if they don't, help me not to go back to the way I was. I want to still grow, Lord. Please help me!

I would like to thank You again, Lord. This time for the beauty of Your creation. Yesterday, as we were leaving Saskatoon, flying above the clouds...the clouds! I have never seen clouds like them before - beautiful! They were absolutely breathtaking! They looked like big cotton balls or cotton candy. The depth of them were astounding! You are an awesome God and Your creation is astounding! Thank You for letting me see just a glimpse of Your handiwork. Thank You for letting be be sensitive to the beauty. I love You, Lord!