October 21, 2010

There is so much I need to talk to You about, Lord; but I don't know where to start!

Am I in inner turmoil - inner pain? Am I still struggling with all the changes in my life over the past few months? Why has this move been so much more difficult than the rest? I know I can't deal with all of this on my own; John doesn't understand. You are the only one who truly understands. So, I come to You. I ask You for Your help. I am miserable and I don't want to be. Help me to be able to come to terms with where You have put me. I feel lost, Lord. "Restore unto me the joy of Your salvation, renew a right spirit within me." This is my prayer today.

I also read my way back through this tablet this morning and on July 15th I asked You to bend me...mold me...reshape me into the woman You want me to be. I asked You to do this and I believe You are. Is it easy? No! Do I like the process? No! Will I like the outcome? I hope so, yes. If not, then I am not being moldable. Lord, I ask You to keep me humble...to help me through this process.

Again, I say that You must have something amazing to do in my life and through me here on Campobello because Satan is sure working overtime on me. Lord, help me not to give Satan victory; I want You to have the victory in my life. Help me today and every day to put You first in my life.

I love You, Lord!